When I think about the last few months I just wanna sit down and cry!!! Yes…a 35 yr old man wanting to cry like a freakin baby. Everything that has happened has really taken the wind outta my sail. It’s knocked the wind outta me and dropped me to the ground several times. But some how some way…I always manage to get up, dust myself off and keep going. Yeah I’m hurt! Yeah I’m sore! Yeah I’m wounded! Yeah I walk with a limp! I got blood running down my face, can barely see due to black swollen eyes, and have bruises all over my body. But I’m still up and walking!!!
The sad thing is…when people see you getting beat down they just stand back and watch. They don’t offer to help and then they kick you when you’re at your weakest. They talk about you behind your back. They gossip about you because you’re in the fight of your life and accuse you of things you didn’t do or they tell what you did do before it got covered by the blood. Then…when you finally overcome and get back on track they wanna try and be your friend and tell you how proud of you they are about how you made it through the fight and fire and try to get a piece of your blessing.
Now why on God’s green earth would I share my blessings and my reward with them? These same people who kicked me when I was down and stabbed me in the back now want a job, a loan, or to be my friend because of what I have or can offer them. I got news for them…ain’t gonna happen!!! If you can’t be with me during the fight you can’t be with me during my blessing!!!
Can it be that I am not who or what I think I am? Say it ain’t so!!! You don’t think I’m strong. You don’t think I’m faithful. You don’t think I can do it. Well guess what… What you think don’t matter. You don’t know what I’ve been through. You don’t know how bad I’ve been hurt. You don’t know what I can and can’t do. I am EXACTLY who I know I am. I am a strong man that’s been through hell to get what I’ve got. I am faithful through all the hell I’ve been through. And I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me!!! Before you THINK you know who I am…why don’t you find out WHO I am!!! Life has thrown a lot of stuff at me and knocked to the ground several times. But I constantly pick myself up, dust myself off and keep moving FORWARD!!! Stop trying to hold me back by what you think. Find out for sure before you open your mouth!
Just sayin!
My company website has been uploaded. I am so excited!!!! This is the 2nd website I’ve built but the first one that I have handled everything on. Not only the design of it, but also the updates, maintaining, and uploading of it. Right now it’s so basic that it almost looks juvenile. Lol. It should be uploaded within the next 1-48 hrs. Not sure if it’s because it’s the first time it’s been more than one page or if it’s gonna take this long every time. But nonetheless…it’s done for now. I will constantly be updating it so I’ll know soon if it’s always gonna take this long or not. The web address is www.lakenddisposal.com. Check it out.
